So I’ve gotten two official invites for Thanksgiving (outside of my family, which will be on Saturday). I’m not sure I want to go to either however. For one of them, I’m still kind of uncomfortable around a particular person, but on top of that, social situations above four people are hard for me. They are extremely exhausting to me. I’m not quite sure why. Even going to church is hard, but I want to go so I deal with it the best I can. I’d almost rather just not do any holidays this year (other than with my immediate family). I’m just not in the mood for them this year. I’m not anti-social, just non-social. Is that such a bad thing? It’s just been a bad year for me socially. Things finally ended with Jessica. Bethany dumped me. I got to be good friends with Bryant, but then he shipped off to boot camp. I don’t see Nathan and Lowell as much as I’d like to. And this girl Megan drove me nuts for a while. It’s too emotionally and mentally exhausting.
Happy Un-Thanksgiving
Screw friends, family is cooler.
I think you just spend the time with the family. Once they move away, you won’t see them much. And not going to other peoples thanksgivings aren’t anti social. Do whatever makes you happy.
I say don’t do anything you’re uncomfortable with, you don’t have to. It really has been that long since Jessica moved out, give it time, it will happen when you least expect it, stop trying so hard. But on the other hand social situations are how you meet people. Take it from someone who knows, enjoy the single life while you can.
Don’t take it so seriously. It was just a moment of self-realization about my social “axiety” or whatever you want to call it. This a “journal” for me to jot down my personal feelings, except it’s public for everyone to see. Expect to see more “personal” things. Everyone else does it…
haha “everyone else does it. . .” now, jason, if everyone else jumped off a cliff, would YOU??!
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i KNOW the social anxiety feeling. I decidedly can’t go to big crowded places without someone i trust. there’s the very occasional times that i can, but mostly, i’d just secretly prefer to be drunk in small groups. lol oh, and not going to other people’s thanksgivings is NOT antisocial. thanksgiving is typically a family event. i don’t go to other people’s thanksgivings either. although the gesture is nice. :)